Today's fortune

I logged into Orkut today after some 90 odd days- and there was a fortune waiting there “You will pass a difficult test that will make you happier”. I chuckled and thought what’s next!! Was that a need of the hour message???!! It’s been close to 90 days since I hit my own blog :-) Changes, changes, changes as usual- haven’t I fallen in love with change! New project, new weather, new place, new friends, new music system, new mobile- nice, nice, nice! But u know change comes with a pinch- and doesn’t it hurt at times?!! That’s what it is- “Passing a difficult test towards happier times”! Bangalore to Milwaukee, 14 hour days, 8:00 am meetings, 6 hrs sleep, virtually single ;-)), loans, setting up a new house, tearing it down and so on….that’s the summary of my last 90 days! We all have these times- and without it, isn’t life so tasteless and bland like a piece of “boiled chicken”! Actually I took today off from work- thanks to a headache- nevertheless the latter part of the day was blessed!!! Refreshing bath, some steaming hot rice for the cold weather outside, browsed aimlessly for hours, got thro my laundry et all – above all- got to do “nothing”.

Sometimes I feel weird just looking at life’s game. One side of the spectrum there are few women- living a fairy tale life- working, married, happy times, lovely kids, nice house, nice car- everything seems hunky dory…(and when I say this to Pramod- he simply remarks everyone has their pie of problem…wonder how men can be so different!! – they must really be from Mars!)….on the other side of the spectrum I see divorced women, single moms, moms without jobs, women with family but dying of cancer and more. Maybe that’s what it is- a mixed bag of white and black balls- beds of roses and thorns. Some battle with various things, some almost cake walk their lives. Bittersweet times, good times, difficult times- all happen to people around us and us- they make our inner self more beautiful- and teach a lesson- to be more strong and tough to oneself- and to show more love to others- to talk to them, listen to them, help them even just get thro a day. So fortune or not- we are moving somewhere- happy or unhappy- learning something. I was mentioning to one of my good girl friends the other day- I seem to have crossed the mid-life crisis stage and feel different. I don’t feel the happy go lucky type girl anymore- but looking forward to maybe something called “womanhood”- maybe am willing to take this change and move on with “the force” supporting me in every step of life like it has always been. Putting down few lines from a song- "Day by Day" (Point Of Grace).

Somebody told me I could travel the world

To find beauty, to find beauty

But to behold it I would have to carry it

Within me, yeah well it's in me

'Cause day by day, You're coming closer

Making our way clearer and straighter

Turning our faces into the Light

And I can't wait to fall at Your glory

On my face, God of the morning

You're coming closer day by day

Fortunes, falling stars, wishes, dreams, hopes, fortune cookies, lucky charms, talismans, astrology.com - wow!! So many ways to assure that “things will be fine”. Good or bad- highs or lows- next time you break your fortune cookie – close your eyes and see the beauty coming through and laugh your way adding the “** ***” words to your fortune message!